Bearing Witness and Bringing Out the God-Colors in the World
Standing up behind a microphone is a funny business. Through story, we tell of our lives and make you all laugh. But it also requires that we share the hard bits, and the sore places, and even, the spots that, after all these years, still bleed. We tear off the bandages and let the wounds out into the open. We are better for the sharing, closer for what we have made known, but the doing so is hard.
There was so much joy in sharing life with the women I was with on Saturday. They were honest, and welcoming, and kind. Driving home at the end of the day, as I almost always do, I cried. Full up with joy, with loss, with hope, with Jesus, and the cup runneth over and dripped all over my jeans.
Later, I put the band-aids back on all the raw spots, and bandaged up the bleeding ones, and go on, until the next time. Is it worth it? I hope so.
One of the activities of this retreat involves making candle holders – a metaphor for what happens when we let our broken bits reassemble themselves and create a living example of what it’s like to have light on the inside. These broken bits of shell are beautiful in the daylight, but even more so when the light is coming from the inside…
You’re here to be light, bringing out the God-colors in the world. God is not a secret to be kept. We’re going public with this, as public as a city on a hill. If I make you light-bearers, you don’t think I’m going to hide you under a bucket, do you? I’m putting you on a light stand. Now that I’ve put you there on a hilltop, on a light stand—shine! Keep open house; be generous with your lives. By opening up to others, you’ll prompt people to open up with God, this generous Father in heaven.
Matthew 5:15-16 MSG