This I Believe: Illness vs. Death
Delighted to have an essay featured on This I Believe this week! A link to the full essay is below. .
At one point I found myself imagining it was cancer.
Fantasizing it was cancer.
I’d rather die of cancer than this.
Up until the age of 40, I was able to live and make decisions as if I had a full life to live. I began a career, and then another. I married, I had a child, and then another. I worked and mothered and lived a fairly normal life. Yet, throughout those relatively happy years, there was always another presence. Creeping from the distance, growing gradually larger and more ominous, until finally, right around my 40th birthday, it parked overhead like a massive alien warship, blocking out the sun and waiting. The life I have known may be nearly over. I can’t ignore my genetic code any longer.
About This I Believe:
This I Believe, Inc., was founded in 2004 as an independent, not-for-profit organization that engages youth and adults from all walks of life in writing, sharing, and discussing brief essays about the core values that guide their daily lives.
This I Believe is based on a 1950s radio program of the same name, hosted by acclaimed journalist Edward R. Murrow. Each day, Americans gathered by their radios to hear compelling essays from the likes of Eleanor Roosevelt, Jackie Robinson, Helen Keller, and Harry Truman as well as corporate leaders, cab drivers, scientists, and secretaries—anyone able to distill into a few minutes the guiding principles by which they lived. These essayists’ words brought comfort and inspiration to a country worried about the Cold War, McCarthyism, and racial division.
In reviving This I Believe, executive producer Dan Gediman said, “The goal is not to persuade Americans to agree on the same beliefs. Rather, the hope is to encourage people to begin the much more difficult task of developing respect for beliefs different from their own.”
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